So hard

It is getting so intense, so difficult to keep my patience along with my father, my ill brother and my stressed mother. The worst thing is that they do not even attempt to love Jesus or even care at all about their decaying hearts. It pisses me off that I am slowly losing my peace because of my own fault of falling under Worldy dilemmas. Ugh! Wow today is the first time in months were I am caught between my anger and my hope. God please help me!!!!!!